Christmas is an emotional time for everyone isn't it? Arguments with the family, forgetting to defrost the turkey, over excited children who don't want to sleep. But for me it's also a time when I feel the loss of my Mum even more than normal. Having kids has made me miss her almost constantly (if only I could ask her what I was like as a baby/toddler, how did she deal with my tantrums?) but Christmas is all about family isn't it (in an Eastenders sort of way). And since the girls something wonderful's happened. I actually look forward to Christmas, I am getting excited about seeing them excited (well within reason, they are only 2 and 7 months, so they're not quite leaving a mince pie for Santa yet). But I also find myself getting stockings over the fireplace, milk ready for the reindeer, oh and too many presents. Maybe it's the lack of a mum in my life that makes me want to be the perfect Christmassy mum for my girls, or maybe it's just because it's the best excuse to actually enjoy this time of year - something I haven't really done for the best part of 20 years. Whatever the reason, I'm a bit over the top at Christmas these days and hopefully my Mum's toasting my little family with a glass of sherry as I type!
By the way I'd like to say here too that I'm rather smug to have a lovely mother in law. She adores the girls and always makes me feel totally welcome and doesn't interfere with my parenting. God bless her.
Right enough Christmassy nonsense. The nanny's here and I'm not going to work so I'm going to huddle down under the duvet in guilt-free bliss for an hour! Hurrah!!
Merry Christmas xx
Hi, I just read your comment on Muddling Along Mummy's blog about why you blog and not worrying about what other people think. I think yours is the only attitude to have when blogging. Now just read your post about your Mum and Christmas. My mum isn't too well and said she thought this would be her last Christmas. It's really come home to me what life might be like without her. Lay awake in the early hours imagining it...
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you are a great mum - my mum lost her mother when she was young and she seemed to enjoy throwing herself into the role to make up for what she missed out on. She's way more patient and laid back than I am.
Must go - the ManChild is trying to give the kids dinner and need to intervene!
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Thanks for reading it and for your comments, very nice to hear. I really hope your mum is ok, but if not believe me you will manage fine, sending you lots of strength and courage across cyberspace. Hope the kitchen's still standing! x
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