Let down. A bit.

I have to write this, and I have to incur possible wrath from rather more established bloggers in doing so.  But the Tots 100 list has really got to me.  Yes yes blogging is all about what you want it to be and we do it for ourselves not for anyone else, yes I do it because I love it and all that.

BUT, the amount of hype about this list would have you believe it was the key to eternal life and if you have Twitter on in the background of your day you can't fail to be dragged in to the hype.

I have a rather respectable amount of lovely people who read this blog (and Technorati seem to think I'm not bad either with an authority of 499 not really sure what that is either, but apparantly it's ok).  But I am not deemed 'engaging' enough for the Tots 100. 

I find it upsetting that I have allowed myself to become part of the blogging rat race, when I only ever wanted to have fun with it and express myself openly.  I have enough competition at work and I really didn't want my blog to be subject to those rules.

So since this is a blog and I am allowed freedom of my own expression, I'm just expressing a sense of feeling deflated and let down. 

I have, therefore, reached a decision.  I'm no longer going to worry about it, I'm going to let it go.  I am genuinely delighted to all those blogs who are listed and I do hope that the ones I read get on the list if that is what they want.

But for me now I'm out of that particular race. 

My blog's just a blog.  It's not an income driver or a product review site.  It's fun and I'm meeting some other lovely people through it and finding some wonderful writing and inspiration.   And that is how it will remain. I hope you enjoy my witterings enough to stick with me, but if not then I understand.  I'll just keep on keeping on.

Apologies for the self indulgence of this post but I really did just want to get that off my chest.

There, all better now.


xxx

ps: Little Film Club prompts can be found here.