From my current vantage point it may seem as unlikely as travelling to the heart of the sun as the Pink Floyd song title says. But I need this to happen for me and my family.
Tonight I climbed into the teeny tiny toddler bed with my daughter ('Mummy stay with me'). This time is special. When I am looking at her beautiful little face, feeling her warm little hands on my cheeks, as she gently falls asleep it is not of this world, it is something I always hoped for but I'm not sure I truly believed it would happen. Maybe I never thought having children would be so completely life-changing (how naive I was).
As I got them both out of the bath earlier, soft, cuddly baby on the floor, chubby little legs kicking as she giggled at her rather damp big sister running around with no clothes on singing the theme tune to Fireman Sam (what else), I felt such a rush of pride and happiness. This is my life, sometimes it feels perfect.
Yesterday my baby spent most of the day falling asleep on me. She hasn't done this since she was a few months old. She wasn't very well, but selfishly I was loving it. Having her hot breath on my neck and her squashy cheeks resting on my shoulder. Thankfully my Dad came round so he kept the toddler occupied reading Peppa Pig books. Just a normal, rather rainy Saturday, but wonderful to me.
Maybe I don't need to do any more to find the perfect balance, maybe I have reached the heart of the sun already.
This post was prompted by the BMB Carnival which will be hosted by A Place of My Own. She asked us to write a post with a song title as the post title. Nice idea don't you think?
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