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Peace & serenity, my wedding day (Gallery & writing workshop)

There has been one day, just one day when the world stopped still.  My mind’s eye focused and caught it in my memory forever.  At peace with the world and finally understanding my place in it. 
As I walked down the aisle with my father, I was hit by the sense of honour.  Honoured all these wonderful, special people had come to share this day with us.  Friends and family from all over the country and even the world. 
I think my happiness was almost tangible.  It brimmed up inside me like a fit of giggles and it stayed bubbling all day long and well into the night.  It was like the best possible drug money can’t buy.  Pure endorphin, fizzing and rushing through me.
It had been raining for about two weeks before our wedding day, but when I woke up at my best friend’s house, where we would later have the reception the sun was shining. Not a cloud in the sky.
We were a bit early to arrive at the church, so we had to drive around for a bit, my Dad getting anxious that we’d be late.  Isn’t that the point for the bride? 
I think he asked me if I was sure.  Dad’s have to do that don’t they.  I was faintly amused by the question.  I had no nerves, no apprehension, no anxiety, just complete and utter, overwhelming excitement.   Of course I was bloody sure!
So much so, I had to nip in to the pub by the church to use the facilities before my big moment.   At the time I thought I ought to at least buy a drink or a bag of crisps.  Some consideration to the fact I wasn’t a paying customer but was using the loo anyway.  The barman just laughed at me, once he got over his surprise, and wished me luck.  I wonder how many brides he gets doing that?

I remember arriving at the reception, I remember chatting to everyone, so so happy they had all come.  Because they had all come.  Apart from four people.  How lucky we were.
Jonathan, my VBFITWWW (see here for more on him) took some beautiful pictures, far better than the ‘professional’ photographer.   I think these images bring to the life the sense of the day.  I also have Jonathan to thank for a speech ‘on behalf of the bride’ that had everyone laughing.
While I know my mother was there somewhere, I could feel her, I wasn’t in the slightest bit sad about her physical absence on my wedding day.
You see getting married to Phil was all I wanted.  
I knew I would be okay with him, I knew he would and always will look after me.  I knew he’d be a great Dad, and he is.  I knew then and I know now that the gentle kind of love we have will keep on buoying us up, even when we feel we are sinking.   As long as we look after it.
So I wasn’t sad about what I had lost before, because I had gained something so wonderful.
If the universe operates in credit and debit, then this was my bonus.   It may have taken away the person I loved the most, but it had given me this special man. 
As you know, we have had two children whom of course I love unconditionally.  We have had some wonderful ups and some fairly catastrophic downs.  And if he wasn’t the man that he is, instilled as he is with a sense of what’s right and a robustness associated with a bygone age, I’m not sure we’d have made it through some of the worst times intact.
The births of my chidren were so different.  As different as it’s possible to be, and with few unifying emotions.  In retrospect they were the best days of my life, but because of what came after, the joy of being a mother.    
But when asked what was the happiest day of my life, the day I felt nothing else but total peace and serenity, it will always be the day I married my husband. 

‘Our song’ was Neil Young’s Silver & Gold.  Would you believe I can’t find it on YouTube?  So here’s the lyrics instead.  Think it sums us up pretty well.

Silver And Gold”

Workin’ hard every day

Never notice how

the time slips away

People come, seasons go

We got something

that’ll never grow old.

I don’t care

if the sun don’t shine

And the rain keeps pouring

down on me and mine

‘Cause our kind of love

never seems to get old

It’s better than silver and gold.

I used to have a treasure chest

Got so heavy that I had to rest

I let it slip away from me

Didn’t need it anyway

so I let it slip away.

I don’t care

if the sun don’t shine

And the rain keeps pouring

down on me and mine

‘Cause our kind of love

never seems to get old

It’s better than silver and gold.

For Josie’s Writing Workshop and Tara’s Gallery:  The prompt was emotions.  Seemed the best excuse ever to talk about my wedding day.
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